Monday, February 21, 2011

It's just another Manic Monday.....

Monday oh how I loathe thee!

I had a pretty rough week last week, especially Friday.  It's always refreshing to find out you've been betrayed and that betrayal affects your potential to be promoted and make more money.  Yes, that is sarcasm you are reading here.

ANYway...I met up with my favorite writing / reading buddy Kristin after finding out about said event/betrayal and we took our laptops over to Starbucks and did some writing.  I've never done that before.  In fact, I'm usually the one making snarky comments about those sitting around in Starbucks doing just that.  I found, however, that it was very nice to write somewhere other than my office at home, and I can't wait to do it again! I apologize to the millions of people that use their laptops in Starbucks for my harsh judgement. We chatted, brainstormed, and did some writing and it really took my mind off of the 9 to 5.  I was calm, cool, and relaxed.  As soon as I got back in the car to go back to my cubicle, my stomach started knotting up, and I literally felt sick to my stomach.  When I got to the parking lot I just broke down in the car, practically hyperventilating.  It could have been the coffee, but I was pretty sure it was the job.  To make myself feel better, I packed up ALL personal items from my desk.  It was fun to watch the boss squirm a little bit watching me.  Finally someone asked if I'd be back on Monday, and I confirmed that I would be...I just had a few personal items I'd been meaning to take home -- that's all.  Bwahahahaha!

Did I want to quit?  My gosh yes!  I've been unhappy for quite some time.  I know that financially it would be tricky so I stay anyway and take the abuse.  I think that this was my final warning though - not work wise but stress wise.  My body is telling me it's time to move on from there.  I've got to finish this book, get it published, and get the eff out of there!!  The thought of getting away from that toxic, high-schoolish environment is the best motivation I can think of to get my story down and done!

Do I have a point?  I think so...

I think the point is that there is a turning point for all of us - when we realize our lives need to change and only we have the power to do it.   I mean, of course this is pretty basic stuff...but we get comfortable and just keep on with how we are doing things.  Friday was my last wake up call.  I'm getting this DONE!

I'm glad that I have such a great group of peeps to hang out with while I'm doing it.  You know, YOU GUYS!  I think we are going to have a fun day when I hit the 50 follower mark.  I have plans for you ALL!  I'd put my evil plot laugh here...but I used it once already.

Happy Monday everyone!  Have a great week!


  1. jiminey! i don't want to sound discouraging at all!!! but writing a book isn't easy. it takes a lot of time and effort and drafts. and then you have to find an agent- which can be a really long process. then the agent has to find a publisher. there are rewrites and drafts all along the process. and often, the money off the books isn't enough to be a person's sole income. if your day job is bleeding your life of all its joy, perhaps you should look for a new one. because the book stuff could take a long time, and you really shouldn't have to suffer so much!

  2. Thanks! I know it's not going to be easy but this job sucking so bad is what I need to stay motivated. I just need to know that the light at the end of the tunnel is NOT a freight train :)

    And yes, the search is on for the new job. Unfortunately it's slim pickings around here...

  3. I think it's great to have this goal--and while I agree with Vic that it's a long arduous process, it's being done, and I think it's great to channel the stress of your day job into the motivation to try to do what you WANT to do. If that made any sense. And I've had the benefit of reading what you've got so far, and brainstorming with you, and I have confidence in you.

    I know you're not going into this blindly--you know it's going to be a lot of work and there is a lot of rejection ahead. So you'll get nothing from encouragement from me here (plus, I used to work where you worked and I know exactly what you're talking about ;).

  4. LOL. I hear ya! The other day, my friend and I sunk to a huge low when we went to lunch together and blog hopped. In fact, I think that's where I found your blog. :)

  5. I haven't tried Starbucks, but I did work at the coffee shop at a book store recently. Like you, I always imagined those people sitting around with their laptops were geeks/nerds/simps or blowhards.
    But it now appears, I'm one of THEM :)
    Try not to fret about the betrayal, there will always be small people who can only feel larger by stepping on someone else.

  6. Okay - I totally had to sing that title in my head...

    Also, I just started dragging my laptop to my local coffee place - not a Starbucks ;) but it's SO nice being somewhere where nothing can interrupt me unless I want it to.